As energy alchemist, I create the conditions for natural healing to take place. I work with people, places and spaces, transversing in non-ordinary reality to release stuck, dense energy.

This type of work has been around for millennia, evidence has been found all around the world, in every culture. They’re often called druids, shamans, medicine men and women, mystics, among other names. I have studied with indigenous lineages of the Americas as well as modern psychics, mediums and land healers. I have also unearthed my own inner knowing and guidance, leading me to new techniques. My method of energy work is a unique blend of all this knowledge and wisdom which I call - energy alchemy.

As an energy alchemist, I believe that being allowed to work with someone on their healing journey is a sacred duty, one that should be held in the highest regard. I always work in a safe, protected and sacred space and coordinate the healing work with your higher-self. When I work with the land, I do so by connecting with the spirits of that particular area and am guided by their wisdom.

MY STORY

IPeople often ask what brought me to this path and the truth is, I've always been here, whether I've consciously known it or not.

I was a very creative and curious child often pondering life's bigger questions at a young age. Some of my best memories growing up on a farm in North Dakota are of laying in the grass staring at the clouds passing by, dancing in the rain with my sisters and endless hours of unbridled free time in nature. As a child of the 80s, I grew up in a simpler time. Living in a rural area with limited access to TV programming, I had wide open spaces to let myself be guided by my imagination.

There was also a darker side to my childhood, one of nightmares and night terrors, feeling uneasy and afraid in my own home and even a UFO experience shared with a friend on the farm. While there was such loving and whimsical energy on the land, there was also dark mysterious energies interwoven in. I had a strange fascination with esoteric subjects early on, and uncommon fears of portals, procession and voices in my head. Perhaps one could say sparked by my imagination running wild after watching movies like Poltergeist and The Exorcist... which is the story I told myself for many years while I traded in my "far fetched" fears and fantasies for "real-life" goals.

The small Lutheran church I grew up going to was on land donated by my great grandparents, and hand-built by my great grandfather and distant family members. My Christian upbringing felt more like community and family than guilt and dogma, however, I always had deeper questions and experiences that the sermon never seemed to answer. But like many people, I overrode my curiosity and inner knowing to fit into the culture and live status-quo.

I traded in farm life for downtown office views, spending my day as a graphic designer, creating corporate art - something I dreamed of since I was in 8th grade. I was living my dream and it was great... for awhile. But in the midst of intermittent burnout, I would often yearn for something more, and less, at the same time. I had an underlying sense that I was forgetting something - and it haunted me for years.

In 2006, a stream of life-changing events took place. I broke up with my long-term boyfriend after shopping for engagement rings, moved out of our house, went into a deep depression, was forced to take a medical leave of absence from my agency job due to sexual harassment (pre "me too" era), eventually quit my agency career and starting my own design business. I worked with fortune 500 companies and small start ups, I no longer felt the handcuffs of a corporate job or lifeless relationship and started to find a new sense of peace.

Just when I felt like life was getting back on track, I began experiencing strange phenomenon and uncontrollable mood shifts, or perhaps it was just that my mind was quiet enough to be conscious of if all. My life became very weird and unpredictable. I didn't understand what was going on and felt very unstable. I often had so much energy flowing threw my body I would run for miles and spend hours in the gym to work it through my system, unbeknownst to me that was what I was doing at the time. I spent years in therapy excavating things like insecurities and perfectionism and deprogramming from societal conditioning, which provided much healing but didn't solve the bigger issues I was grappling with or bring a sense wholeness and purpose.

Eventually I was diagnosed with cyclothymia, which is now classified as bi-polar 3, and put on mood stabilizers. Later on I realized I was an empath, which explained some of the symptoms, but I still had no solutions. I later learned that in many indigenous cultures around the world, a person who experiences neurodivergant symptoms such as bi-polar, are taken in by mystical elders of the community to help them sort out their experiences and hone their abilities. But in western culture, we often over-medicate, shun and either lock them away or leave them alone to be gobbled up by their supernatural experiences and unexplained phenomenon.

It was all getting to be too much, so I prayed that everything I was experiencing would just STOP. I feared that I was going down a path that I couldn't control and I would eventually be "too weird" to have any sort of a "normal" life. My prayer was answer and things quieted down for awhile.

Shortly thereafter, I met my now husband. We dated, got married, got a house, got a dog... living out the "American Dream". The mood stabilizers kept most of the strange phenomenon and unpredictable mood shifts away from the surface, but the underlying current was always there. And the nagging reminder that I was FORGETTING something would pop up often, usually accompanied by bouts of existential despair and a longing for something more, yet not having a clue what any of that meant.

After the birth of my son in 2018, a massive undercurrent of shifts and changes arose to the surface. Sociology calls this "matresense", neuroscience speaks about it in terms of parental brain changes, I consider it to be a soul evolution. It sparked something in me that cared deeply, not only about my own child, but about EVERY child, in a way I can only describe as tapping into the collective divine mother energy.

While exploring my own inner shifts, I also began to ask bigger questions again about the meaning of life. At the same time, I went against the popular parenting advice to leave my baby alone in his crib to cry at night (sleep training), reflecting on my own nighttime fears as a child. This societal divergence helped me to trust my inner voice again. I became very passionate about biologically normal infant sleep and took an in-depth training with a neuroscientist / doula, Dr. Greer Kirshenbaum, on infant sleep and neurodevelopment. Curious about why motherhood was SO DAMN HARD, I learned about the complex realities of motherhood, something only now starting to be talked about, by taking Dr. Sophie Brock's Motherhood Practitioner Certification. I started coaching families on biologically normal infant sleep, became an advocate for mothers and started a motherhood collective with my sister. While I was very passionate about these subjects and they filled up my years during and around the pandemic, I was being nudged to move in a different direction.

In the spring of 2022, I experienced what I can only describe as the land I grew up on, calling me to heal it. At the time it felt absurd as I had no awareness of such a thing back then. Luckily my highly spiritual therapist validated this experience and enlightened me to the fact that land healing has a strong history in indigenous cultures. A couple months later we took a trip to visit my dad, who still lives on the land. My son, who was 4yrs old at the time and had been talking about seeing various spirits since he was 2yrs old, pointed out what we later realized was a large, negative portal on the land, just 15 feet away from my grandparent’s house, the creepiest part of the land. Looking back, my sisters and I remember my niece who was 8 years old at the time, pointing out the same thing about five years prior. During this visit, my deceased grandfather was communicating to me specific messages to bring to my dad about his past regrets and how difficult life on the farm was for them. My son sees and communicates with him in one of the barns and it’s such a real experience to him, he doesn’t accept that Grandpa Rude passed away in 1995, believing he is still alive. I never doubted my son’s assessment of what he saw because on a very deep level, I knew it was true and was a big part of the reason I experienced so many frightening things growing up there.

A number of profound occurrences happened during that trip and the months and years following - which is a story for another time. But ultimately what it did, was put me on a quest to find out more about these phenomenons and what my role was with them.

I immersed myself in various psychic and shamanic trainings. I spent many hours in meditation and shamanic journeys connecting with my higher self, guides and mentors. I read countless books and did past life regressions discovering previous lives doing this work... eventually leading me to conclusion that I wasn't "learning" anything new, as much as I was "remembering" what I've always known.

After healing my own home's geopathic stress, closing negative vortexes and crossing out stuck spirits, I started to work with friends and family home's to do the same. I also helped their kid's nightmares to dissipate, and began working with people to release stuck patterns, ancestral curses, attachments (entity removal) and fragmentation reclamation (soul retrial) amongst other things.

I am still on my own journey of growth and healing. I believe coming to wholeness is a continual process and there's always more to evolve on this beautiful, humbling earth experience.

MY TEACHERS
Ana Larramendi - The Hollow Bone

Debra Morrill - Shamanic Healer & Spiritual Teacher

Isabeau Maxwell - The Sage Method

Annette Rugolo - Environmental Healer & Dowser

Amy Dempster - Earth Tenders Academy

Alberto Villaldo - The Four Winds Energy Medicine Training

LaJeanne Runnels - Psychic Medium & The Silva Method Instructor